field of fear

it is easy to make the statement - 'live in the now' - it is another thing to try and live it. it is much more pleasant when you do not worry about the past or the future. the problem i am having is that one basic problem keeps rearing it's ugly head.  fear.  the fear is like a weed. a weed that starts out a small thing - and when i try to pluck it out, instead of coming out by the roots, it breaks off at the soil. it continues to grow - only now it will have a sturdier base. each time it is snapped off at the soil - the base gets stronger and stronger, until it has to be dug out with a shovel, leaving a disfiguring hole in the garden.  if it is not removed - it takes over the garden. it's seeds will be distributed amongst the beautiful plants where they will thrive and blossom and spread again - until there is nothing beautiful left, only a field of weeds.


too bad  'round up'  won't work on fear.