You ever feel like you have resolved an emotional issue and find that it is only your mind that thinks it has been resolved? Your body is still in angst and will forcefully show you that you are actually upset.
When will they be in sync? Ever?
I dunno...
I had an appointment with Patti today. I got ready, drove to her office, parked the car, went up in the elevator, began walking down the hall towards her office and it hit me. IBS. No warning at all and BAM! I was outta commision for at least the next hour. I wrote Patti a note and was going to leave it in her office. It sounded like she might be alone - so I knocked and left her the note in person, while I edged towards home.
So embarrassing.
She is very sympathetic and kind. I will call her to reschedule.
Why now? I have not had an IBS bout in over 2 months. Is it attack of the yeast again? My diet has not been great lately. Or is it the upset I have been feeling about going to a family function in the near future? Maybe both. I have felt angry for the last 24 hours or so...at myself and the unsettled crap that always rolls around in my mind when it comes to parties or social stuff. I feel strong when I am in my own element, but if I have to be out of my safety zone I am very uncomfortable.
I really needed to keep the appointment today.
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