Friday, January 27, 2012
There is Life in the Quiet
I read an article today that inspired me to be more accepting of myself. I am an introvert. I am a quiet person who lives in her head much of the time. I will take talking 'streaks', when you cannot squeeze in a word - but, for the most part, I am quiet and reserved. I like natural sounds (birds, running water, horse's nickering) rather than those of our technology (cars, trains, planes.) The sounds of the earth and its creatures are comforting and help me to feel centered - both emotionally and physically. And that reminds me of my core self...authentic Jenny... with all her strengths and weaknesses. And it reminds me of my place in this universe.
It has taken some time to come to this calm contentedness. And it seems to be a constant growth process. Except, usually we think of growth as getting bigger, better; but my growth has been to strip away layers of scar tissue, scabs and stories created by my ego for its own preservation.
I've tried lots of things in the past to heal my wounds. Some things work for awhile and then grow back. This latest healer seems to be more effective because it is actually making the cause of the wounds unimportant. The real cause of my wounds is myself and how I react to things. When I take the importance out of those things (the stories), the reactions are much calmer and no wound is inflicted, and past wounds can heal when they are not constantly reinforced.
I've always liked the quiet. Society told us that the best kind of person was outgoing; Yet another way that other people cause us to doubt ourselves because they want to make money off of our fears.
This might make sense to some. I hope it does. It really is so much simpler than I thought.